October 15, 2025
Can I be angry ?
be angry
angry
oct.14, 2025
EGO
My striped people are a representation of the ego. Because they are not given the privilege of identity.
In relation to time,
Inspired by a quote,
“Existing in the present moment is to live without an ego “ @billy newspaper on tiktok
In spaces that are for the elite (institutions/college), students who have no safety net have to fight a battle of ego. Systems encourage the “ego” of students from minority backgrounds by telling them that their chase for their dream is what makes them special and separate from the “rest” of us (e.g.model minority myth, “the master’s tool will never dismantle the master’s house.” Audre Lorde, Jared Ball and Ada Akpala on black excellence). Our ego is our dream to make it big one day. We chase and run harder because we are conditioned to believe we have a scarcity of resources. But this does not let us sit in the present. And when we don’t get to sit with our present moment but constantly run towards a (oftentimes capitalistic) dream or even freedom to gain our identity (which we are told that money may afford us), we never get to reach ourselves because we're too busy chasing.
E.g. In college/academic institutions that are for the elite, they let in a small percentage of students from minority/impoverished backgrounds. They are not afforded their own identity, they are afforded their ego. When I talk about ego, I talk about the sense of self from the perspective of past and future. These students have much more at stake than students who are economically comfortable, these students are let in because they chase their dreams but at what cost?
Identity is where you can think of yourself within the present tense. Ego is where you think of yourself as past existence and a future goal, not affording a person their time to be conscious or existence of oneself.
Why does my various ways of making work have a hierarchy of representing me better or worse? Aren’t all my works a representation of me? Ego or not.
This ties into me and my being, Why am I not afforded the time to think and exist without production?
October 5, 2025
Venus’s Fungi
haha
August 15, 2025
ah–bbppah , abbpha , appa
아빠how lucky I am to have you,
little --- -- heart,
we watch a -------- movie and after, you can ----- me --- to golf.
June 29, 2025
I still have so much to learn
subtle and subsequential
ladybug
ladybug ladybug
thank you for finding me again
June 12, 2025
muuom
yeeoh–jja mooum-ee waeeiee–rrae!
June 11, 2025
I was my parents first dagger of assimlation
My laborious art practice has become my pride as it proves to be a testament to my parents but it is also the only way my identity feels accepted
I am bitter
ee - go
The faces you see here are not mine. I will be a loud tin-can if it means I can rest in myself one day.
Readings oh uh oh
Ornamentalism by Anne Anlin Cheng, 2019
Yearning by Bell Hooks, 1990
Your Silence Will Not Protect You by Audre Lorde, 2017
Will to Change by Bell Hooks
Thank you for finding interest in my work in our busy busy world
And sorry about your eyes